smile for me. (:

happy birthday chrism! :)

you're an old man now. -_- twenty years old. if you plan to live to a hundred years old, you have four sets of twenty years to live. :) my my my. i must say that you've GROWN! *sob* little boy chrism is a non-teenager now. twenTY. -_- he's in his "ties" now. but don't worry chrism. just because you get old doesn't mean you can't come to our house anymore. :) the food misses you!

p.s. i hope you liked the card and your sweater. me and steph wrapped it. :) you're a bee on the card because you knoe, you're a BUSY bee! haha get it? because you're always busy.

ergh. i feel torn. wilbur, joe and jordan all told me to grow up and change because i act so "immature." -_-

except jordan. he became one of the good guys and understood that it's just a part of me. :)

every sunday the ushers pass out bulletins and a prayer card comes with it.

so joe fills out the prayer card: prayer requests: evangeline will grow up and become more mature.

and different remarks made by joe and wilbur were scribbled around the paper.
wilbur: "GROW UP" NOW
joe: i don't think you would know how to grow up.
wilbur: why do you want to live in the past?
joe: k..if you won't know how to grow up then forget it just don't bother.
joe: I'll talk to you about it one day.

-_- VERY encouraging words.

am i really "immature?" ergh. oh well. -_-

would it be better if i was DISmature?

i just don't want to grow up. i really don't. ._.

because if i have to grow up, i'll have to change. -_-

excerpt from jordan's email:
and i know i said i hate ur childish personality and im sorry that i told u to change cuz thats what makes you , you .....and thats why ur such a unique persoN ( i cant believe i am saying this -_- hahha) .........and who am i to tell u how to act, i do appreciate ur childish behavior cuz its fun, but u can go overboard sometimes .........but liek i said maybe God is using u to better me as a person so when i become a daddy ill have alot of patience for my annoying kids =] ........right? ....so Yup !

and here's uncle's [dennis].
Thanks for being who you are...Don't change anything about yourself...Keep being who you are..

and my mother told me that she was disappointed in the way i was acting. -_- she said she doesn't want me to act different. and to stay away from the "world." and some other matters.

but it was as if she slapped me. that's one of the most worsest things she could've said to me. that she was disappointed in me. -_- i was about to cry. @_@

so don't ever say you're disappointed in me. i think if seven people were to say that to me i would get a nervous breakdown. -_-

but my mother said she loves me. and sometimes people say hurtful things they don't mean..i hope. just yesterdae she said she was proud of me. and just five minutes ago she told me she loved me and bid me good night. :)

i hope it'll stay like this forever. that my parents will always say good night to me and give me a hug and a kiss..EVERY night. and when i get married, i hope they drive to my house and say good night to me. -_- but i don't think they will. maybe i should drive to their house, probably this house, and get a good night kiss from them.

one time my father somehow didn't say good night to me..probably because he forgot but i don't knoe. i was so sad i started crying because i felt like he didn't love me. -_- he got mad when i told him because he said that it was stupid to feel that way. he said he'll always love me. *beam*

i got a new cell phone. it's just like steph's. ehehe. now we could be like twins!

._. but..no more pucca case. everyone's STEALING pucca away from me! they have pucca keychains, lunch boxes, pencil cases, pencils and pucca everything! whackalaka. -_- pucca is MINE.

so anyhow, i got a new cell phone, thus my number has changed. :) it starts and ends with a seven. guess what it is!

seven used to be my favorite number because steph said that it's one of the "good" numbers.

and when i was in fourth grade, she told me, christina, angela, and abraham that the number to call heaven is 777) 777-7777. -_- and we believed her too. i remember one time i tried calling heaven. but it would never ring..so i thought maybe God was too busy to pick up the phone because there's so much going on with everyone else.

then three years later i go to a conference and a speaker talks about how we could talk to God whenever we want. He's never too busy for us..He'll be there when we're happy, He'll be there when we're sad, angry, anything. He's always there to listen when we talk to Him. we don't have to email or CALL to reach Him..we could just talk to Him. so don't try calling heaven. you'll just make your phone bill go up higher. if you want to talk to God, just talk.

sometimes when i'm talking to myself, i end up talking to God. on "accident." or in other words "unconsciously."

i don't like the word unconsciously because it's kind of hard to pronounce. something about the "s" sound. like ancient. that's one of the hardest words for me to enunciate. i like to be articulate in my words because it's fun moving your mouth. but my teachers always tell me that i mumble. and people do too. chrisl used to call me "mumbly" because he says that he can't understand a word i say. -_-
he's given me so many nicknames i don't remember them all. for now, he's supposed to call me "doofus" but HAH! i think he forgot. :) i don't want him to call me doofus because it sounds like a name for stupid people if they are any. and doofus sounds like a walrus with two long front teeth sticking out. -_- i hope my teeth don't look like they stick out. the dentist didn't say that i had to get braces. instead, i got an A+. :) i've been getting A pluses for five years now. :)

but two years ago abraham hit my front teeth with his helmet really hard because he was just "swinging it around." i wasn't too happy. so i was about to grab his helmet and hit HIS front teeth. but i didn't because it's not nice. -_- his front teeth were loose anyway.

i should have stole them after they fell out so he wouldn't get any money from the tooth fairy. >_< but i didn't think of it back then.

me and jerry and luke were stuck at church during epic on saturday so we all went to uncle and jonathan's office and talked...while i attempted to do homework.

and jerry called me gay. (note: for some reason, he told me to put that in my blog)

and only two people have called me gay in my whole life. -_-

he called me gay because i write notes to myself on a piece of paper to remind myself what to put in my blog.

i can't help it. i think i have insufficient memory--at least lately. -_- that's a sign of getting old. i would try to save trees (so i could hug them :) just kidding.) by not using paper and write everything on my hand but it rubs off. and i got in trouble for writing on my hand. -_-

if jerry calls me and everyone weird, doesn't that make HIM the weird one and me the normal one because he's the only "normal" one and i'm weird like everyone else?

jerry doesn't understand my point. -_-

but i must say, he IS a very funny boy.

"a box of Godiva chocolates really brightens my day." --uncle

haha..my mother doesn't knoe how to write turtle in chinese. but i don't either. so i can't do my chinese homework. e_e

H i rYu X 10 27: u fag
yvonne! he called me one too. -_- let's go beat him up! and give him a jackie chan butt kick and punch his nose. -_-

then three minutes later..
H i rYu X 10 27: haha
H i rYu X 10 27: put htat in journla
H i rYu X 10 27: i called u fag
H i rYu X 10 27: cuz i wnat to be mentioned in ur journal
SAtoHsHiMei: lol. i'm updating..and i DID put that without you asking
H i rYu X 10 27: haha
H i rYu X 10 27: YAY!
H i rYu X 10 27: u HOMO!
H i rYu X 10 27: ur pathetic u homofag
SAtoHsHiMei: i'm not putting you in -_-
H i rYu X 10 27: :-(
H i rYu X 10 27: sorrie
H i rYu X 10 27: best firend

-_- so much for being a best friend.

i saw sunny on saturday at the wedding and steven. :) back to the old days.. she's coming back to our church yes! eeeeee! and steven's grown up. -_-

this year is kind of like eighth grade all over again..very strange. @_@ it's been THREE years since i've been in eighth grade. ._. my, i think i might be getting old now. but i won't.

steph bought angela and marianna some spongebob hair clips. i took the spongebob one. :) so the squirrel--i think her name is sandy and gary is taken by marianna. and i think angela took patrick. but nobody wants squidward. poor squidward. marianna said that she doesn't like him because he's mean to spongebob. i just think he looks scary. @_@ if i were to wake up one day and see squidward hanging right in front of my face..who knows..i might die of a heart attack.

is squidward spelled squidwad or squidward? steph keeps insisting that it's spelled squidwad because his head is a wad. -_-

almost all the girls i knoe think spongebob is so cute. in school, all these girls have spongebob stickers, keychains, slippers, backpacks, and so on.

haha. well.....spongebob can be cute..

but wouldn't it be scary if spongebob just barged into your house one day and talks to you? or if you wake up to hear spongebob laughing at you? *shudder* that would be so scary. i think i would become dumbstruck. -_-

steph got christina a spongebob backpack for her birthday. and angela and marianna got spongebob clips. and steph has her own spongebob backpack. and marianna made a spongebob. and at school, all these girls have spongebob things. and at church, jessicawa has her spongebob backpack and some other people have some spongebob things too. @_@ i'm surrounded by spongebobs! i think i'm scared of spongebob now. he looks scary. -_- ever since the first time i saw him last year--sophomore year i thought it was some scary cartoon like beetle juice or something. but spongebob is good and nice. and he can be cute sometimes. but i just knoe i'm kind of scared of spongebob. >_<

i like darin and all. but when steph talks to him at the phone...i kind of get JEALOUS. and i look like the green monster. @_@ just kidding. if i turned into a monster i would be so afraid of myself. maybe i'd try to color myself yellow because yellow monsters look more friendlier than green ones. i would probably live like the beast in "beauty and the beast" and be locked up in this humongo castle..staying all by myself. *shudder* that would be even more scarier. -_- i don't think i'll like the idea of scaring myself... actually, i'll just not be a monster.

anyhow, i DO like darin but he's taking steph away from all of us. and what if she loves him more than us? more than me? -_- and when she talks on the phone with him here, it makes me feel asijdsd. HE's the one who gets to see her in san diego, and he also gets to see her at home while WE only get to see her at home. STOP TAKING STEPH AWAY. -_- just kidding. darin's a nice boy. very nice. and he takes care of us sometimes. he's like our big brother kinda. and he helped me with my physics homework. :) he invited us to eat at his house before too. his mother is really kind to us too. and his sisters, helen and emily were nice to us. but i think they like marianna the best. because she's the smallest and i guess you could say the cutest.

and his favorite cartoon is spongebob and i heard that he likes to sing disney songs. he has a "darin" kind of voice that goes down up down up down. just listen to him talk and you'll understand. it's like the ocean. he's good at math and physics because his head is full of numbers. sometimes he just doesn't communicate well because numbers are just in the way.

oh well. i think steph still loves us better.

so i went to sleep early todae. because i finished all of my homework. eeeeeee!! :D

..except i couldn't fall asleep. -_-

so here i am, typing away in my blog because i can't sleep. what a wonderful story this would make. -_-

-_- alsiualsduijasd. i am so tired. i think i'm too tired to sleep. aiyah. i hate it when this happens. my daddy can't sleep sometimes too. so that makes me feel better.

ergh. actually, it's all HIS fault. -_- he passed this insomnia mode down to me. i bet he did it on purpose too. *_*

like joe says, i'm beyond tired. -_-

my mother says one of the main reasons i can't sleep is because i think too much ...and i guess i do at night..since i don't have any other time to think. they just come. circling round and round inside of my head. and keep circling. at least they're not flying around this time. but i wish it was like a measuring tape so i could pull and pull and pull and pull it out of my head. then i think i would be able to sleep.

i even tried reading the Bible because reading usually makes someone fall asleep. but after reading four chapters of proverbs i think i got more awake. too much wisdom from the book of proverbs transferred into my brain.. *_*

here's some words of wisdom:

"seldom set foot in your neightbor's house--too much of you, and he will hate you." --proverbs 25:17
haha. that's just like spongebob. i remember in the summer we watched spongebob squarepants in palm springs. and it was about squidward, losing or quitting his job. and he kept going to spongebob's house. and kept making spongebob do everything for him and serve him food. and one day, spongebob just got so exasperated that he kicked squidward out of his house. i think that's what happened. and he probably started to hate squidward too. the end. :) so the moral of the story is: don't go to your friend's house too much because he/she might start despising you. even if it doesn't seem like it.

"better to live on a corner of the roof than share a house with a quarrelsome wife." --prov. 25:24
:D ahaha! i won't ever have to worry about having some quarrelsome wife.

-_- but maybe i MIGHT be a quarrelsome wife when i grow up. @_@ asdoij. i hope i won't become like that..because if i knoe i'll become one, i'll just not get married. :) very simple solution.

"if a man digs a pit, he will fall into it; if a man rolls a stone, it will roll back on him." --prov. 26:27
i'm going to dig a hole one day. and we'll see if i fall into it or not. :) just kidding. i think it means if someone tries to set up a trap for someone else, he/she will fall into their own trap. so don't set traps.

"do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth." prov. 27:1

"better is open rebuke than hidden love." prov. 27:5
so if you love someone, you must yell at them at all times. :)

the end. i hope you enjoyed some words of wisdom. they're all from king solomon. and he was the wisest man in the world.

actually, i think it's supposed to be reading something BORING that makes someone fall asleep.

i tried reading persuasion by jane austen because christina said that book was kind of boring. but i guess that didn't work either. it's pretty interesting. it's about a girl named Anne Elliot. and she got persuaded too easily. and that messed up her life. poor anne. i knoe how she feels. i get persuaded easily too. but then throughout the book she learns how to stand firm. :) i should read the whole book and maybe i'll learn how to not be persuaded so easily..and go against the flow. ..yes. i shall do that.

oh well. i give up. -_- no more attempts at falling sleep.

:D steph left her red 'strawberry shortcake' shirt for me and christina to wear this week. :) what fun.

she left a note on a torn ucsd financial aid envelop:

dear hung and stina--
since you guys said i took most of the clothes
i left my strawberry shortcake shirt
for you guys to wear this week.
love, steph

what a nice and thoughtful sister. :) we shall treasure the 'strawberry shortcake' shirt and think of you when we wear it. :)

i missed uncle [dennis] terribly. -_- i haven't talked to him for so long. i felt like a part of me was gone. but after service i gave him a big hug. and sarai said in disbelief: i can't believe dennis gives hugs!

his sermon touched me--AGAIN. for the past four weeks all the sermons touched me. -_- because they knew. God knew. ahah! it makes me sound like i committed a crime. but don't worry because i didn't. i don't even knoe what they knew.

uncle said in his sermon to focus. he told me last week to focus even when there's so many things going on. i guess i forgot about focusing. ._. too many things went on. thanks uncle for reminding me. i need to focus. maybe i should buy some foci so that i could focus better. ahaha! just kidding. i don't think you could buy foci anyway. i learned it in algebra two last year. like the foci points or something. i don't remember. ._.

i like EPIC people. :)

..now that i think about it, i think i like giving hugs to people rather than people giving me hugs. :)

i wanted to give a hug to luke todae but he looked down. and rejected me. -_- oh well. here's a hug for you anyway: *HUG*

so i kept hugging angela, since she was sitting next to me--doing homework on the other computer. except i think she got annoyed after a while because she said: okae okae okae. i need to do my homework now. -_- i was sad. she didn't want me to hug her. eheh. i think she was flustered. :) i love her.

but then five minutes later abraham came up to me and hugged me for about one hundred and sixteen seconds. almost two minutes. :) i think that's the longest time he's ever hugged me. then we both sang 'skater boy' because the song was playing on the computer. i felt embarrassed because i didn't knoe the words..and he knew practically every word. ._. i can't ever catch onto the words.

he knoes so many other songs too. and christina. and probably angela too. and of course steph knoes way more songs than all of us. marianna surprises me too sometimes. somehow she knoes the words to a lot of songs and just sits around sometimes and sings.

i remember yesterdae in the limo bus i didn't knoe any songs. except for "it's gonna be me." :) but there was this one song that everyone was singing to. and i was just sitting there watching with my mouth clamped shut because i didn't knoe anything. oh well. one can't knoe everything in this world.

wow. homecoming was much more different than how i thought it would be.

it was beautiful. here. imagine:

stepping off your limo, you walk between the open gates and sign in. walking in, you would first focus upon the stage, where there were some people dressed in gold robes and feathers on their heads singing. i think they're congo people. :) they were there to match the theme. something about the wilderness.

then your eyes will fall upon the the small tables and stools that were sitting around in front of the stage. there were bowl candles on the tables too. and sparkly colorless christmas lights on the trees. behind the 'stage' was where pictures were being taken. distinguished looking waiters and waitresses walked around, serving refreshments and drinks. and they were free. :) then on your left, there's a door that is opened by a very dignified waiter man. i wanted to open the door for myself so that i didn't have to cause any trouble for the dignified man but hiroshima [sherman] said that the man was PAID to open doors.

-_- i don't remember getting paid for opening doors.

anyhow, the door opens to a place that looks like an old-fashioned townhouse. the music changes. because an old lady plays the piano. but the music wasn't calm. it was kind of jumpy on purpose. i wanted to play the piano but i think it would've been impolite if i asked. she probably would've frowned at me. yes, back to the room. the floor is sprinkled with shimmering glitter and tiny gold stars. there's red plush sofa chairs, a REAL fireplace. and another one. and we can't forget the moose. or was it a deer. oh well. there was an enormous moose head that stuck out of the wall with its horns sticking out. and wilbur kept staring at it for some reason. i named the moose annabelle.

the bathrooms are on your right and as you walk on, there are artists drawing caricatures of people. and then more red plush chairs with golden arms and legs. and on your left, there's a small dining room like the ones at home.

out you go, to another place. it's town life. all the "stores" are stacked together and white tables and chairs are set for people to sit on them. and to your right, there's a white veranda that was lighted up--where people could karoke.

left to the veranda, there's a casino room--where people gambled with fake money. but i didn't gamble. :)

then you pass by store windows and they all have something about Diamond Bar brahamas. (note: wildcats are better than brahamas.)

then across the room, opposite of the veranda is the dance floor. where people were dancing like crazy. the music was blasting so loud i thought i would go deaf. :)

-_- you have to come see it yourself, blog. you can't just imagine how everything looks like.

but it was very picturesque. :) i liked it.

well, so me and jessicawa were running a little late in the beginning because we had things to do before. she had her band practice and i had a crosscountry invitational/meet at craig park across from brea mall.

steph had to take me from home alllllllll the way to chino hills, the land of cows. or as steph calls it, the desert.

thanks chinx--for driving me to places all over even when it's so early in the morning. -_- sorrie for the trouble. when I DRIVE, i'll drive you around.

as i walk into their house, joe and mike start running around the house like waving their hands like madmen yelling: we gotta go! we gotta go! we gotta go!! repeatedly. -_-

then they leave.

yvonne comes later to do mine and jessicawa's hair and alice did our make-up. i don't like make-up. -_- i felt so girly-girl. i guess i didn't look too excited because yvonne and steph kept mentioning it. i read a book called wayside school is falling down. there was this one chapter where the story goes backwards. :) i was quite amused.

anyhow, it was fun with yvonne, alice and steph there with me and jessicawa. they talked a lot. :) their lives seem so interesting. i think movies could be made about them. :D

in the end, jessicawa came out very gorgeous.

chrisl dropped by and scared everyone because we all thought he was jordan coming to pick up me and jessicawa...since we weren't prepared. he was wearing a green shirt. :) i should've worn my green shirt too--then we could've been like twins! -_- but i didn't.

then jordan comes--stressed out of his head. he was really exasperated because everyone was running late and he likes to "be on time" though he's not always punctual.

remind me--i'm going to try to be punctual to crosscountry practice everyday so i won't have to stay in a push up position for five minutes. it makes your arms very VERY sore--like they're about to fall off. i got punished on friday and afterwards i felt like a scarecrow. -_-

anyhow, jordan takes me and jessicawa to xpose and i see a massive group of other diamond bar people outside of xpose. and i suddenly get really intimidated.. adding on to my insecureness. and as jordan leaps out of the car i tell him that i'm not going to get out. but he was about to get extremely exasperated so i went out. but me and jessicawa lingered behind the car before going in. it was so intimidating -_- all the girls looked so pretty. and the guys looked so "hip" like..and all of them were wearing a silver tie and black dress shirt--exact thing jordan wore. :)

then i see kelly, wilbur, hiroshima [sherman], and timmy [electric]. they were all so beautiful. i felt like giving them a prize. but i didn't have any with me.

i 're-met' sarah, timmy's date. i met her two years ago at reubee's birthday party but i think she forgot me. -_- but she remembered my name. that is all. but she is a rather koolio girl. i found out that we're like kindred spirits. :)

reubee and wilso actually did their limo service. they looked so professional--all dressed up along with their sunglasses. their "limo" was decorated as well. :) they drove timmy and sarah around.

hiroshima, wilbur, kelly, jordan, jessicawa and me rode on the limo bus with terry and her friends. and jerry too. it was pretty. there were lights on the ceiling and they changed colors.

for dinner, we went to waters. extremely beautiful. very breathtaking. it was where chrisl took steph to dinner for her birthday. :) there was a humongo lake around the restaurant so that's probably why they called it "waters." but i don't think so.

i wanted to go swimming but i was scared that there might be big black octopuses with red eyes and giant purple jellyfish in the water. *shudder* it worser than seeing a whole clump of ants crawling around the house.

everything on the menu was very expensive there. i think we all should've went to mcdonalds and eat there but no one else agreed with me. i ordered pasta and saved some for my siblings in a circle box but i left it in reubee's car overnight so it got contaminated. ._.

me and jerry prayed over the food. :) everyone actually prayed together and we held hands like one big family.

i wanted to pay for the dinner but i guess not. -_- hiroshima wouldn't let me.

a man played guitar too. since i asked to play the piano at a restaurant in arizona one time, jordan wanted to ask the guitar man if he could play the guitar. but i think he chickened out. he shouldn't have. he plays extremely well. -_-

wow. i'm FINALLY getting tired. good. i shall go to sleep. NOW i knoe the cure. i should just blog blog blog. it makes me feel tired. :)

how could i forget: thanks yvonne and alice for helping me get ready. you guys are like professionals. :) next time if you guys go to a dance, i'll do both your hair and make-up. :) here's a hug for either one of you. hurry! whoever sees the hug first, gets the hug. here it is: *HUG*

thanks chrisl for dropping by. and amanda for watching and being there. :)

and of course, i knoe after reading the thank you's up there--you're looking for your 'thank you'--haha just kidding. but thank you chinx. you did so much for me when i didn't even knoe what was going on. yes. stupid hung-oi. -_- but "forreals," you're the bestest older sister anyone could ever have. i'm glad you're my sister. i love you. :) here. YOU get NINETEEN hugs because..you are nineteen years old!! *hug**hug**hug**hug**hug**hug**hug*
*hug**hug**hug**hug**hug**hug**hug*
*hug**hug**hug**hug**hug*. there. and no, i didn't copy and paste it. :)

(note: christina, angela, abraham or marianna better not say to steph: "you're the bestest older sister anyone could ever have," or else i'll be mighty jealous >_<)

oh yea. homecoming was not fun.

it was really pretty. entertaining. beautiful. different. funny. gorgeous.surprising. cold. glittery. exciting. exasperating. amazing. it was very fun. not fun. thanks hiroshima. :) like they say, it's a night to remember.