smile for me. (:

jonathan pierced his left ear!!

just kidding. he didn't.

-_- BUT he tricked me. he didn't pierce his ear. he was wearing a magnet earring. i can't believe i fell for it. ._.

jonathan is stupid. -_- he is stupid double times. yes. and again, he is stupid.

i think i must be having "growing pain." #_# agh. the unforgettable feeling of "growing pain."

i think the first time i had "growing pain" was when i was six. i remember my leg hurt so much that i couldn't sleep at night that i'd try to wake up everyone else so that they could bear the pain with me. (note: in the old house, me, steph, stina, angela, abraham slept in the same room on two twin beds; marianna wasn't born yet) but as always, they'd always snore on and on. so i would cry. and my mother would sleepily rush in and ask: what's wrong?! and i'd tell her that my leg was in pain and she'd soothe me saying that it was just growing pain, telling me that i would be taller the next day. then she'd stay by the bed and pray for me and sing songs to me until i fell asleep. and she did that every time my leg had "growing pain."

but she doesn't do that anymore. -_- i miss it. and i can't cry to make her come. ergh. i don't think anyone would even hear if i started crying now. well, maybe if i howl and bawl really loud, everyone will come running down the stairs. but that would take some great effort. -_- and i don't knoe how to force myself to cry.

for now, i'm just in excruciating pain. -_- ack. i feel like studying math. but i can't.

but on the brighter side, i'm still growing. :) yes! then my goal of reaching 6'2 will be achieved. eeeeeeee!!

debbuah, like darin, doesn't drink carbonated drinks. ahahaha! wow, to add to their commality, their names start with a "d" too. :D

my mother for some reason strongly disagrees with me being vegetarian. -_- but i DO eat meat occasionally--especially when i'm forced to. such as the time when steph forced me to eat a popcorn chicken at lollicup..i kept refusing until she gave me her most ominous look. so i had no choice but to eat it. so that means i'm not exactly vegetarian. -_- i don't knoe what i am. if i eat meat and vegetables, i can't be called a vegetarian nor can i be called a meatarian. *sob* i'm nameless. just like the boy in the book that i read in seventh grade called The Chrysanthemum, who had no name because he wasn't worthy of one so he was just called "Muna" which means no name. -_-

yesterdae when i was reading for english, i found out that i missed uncle [dennis]. so i said outloud to myself: i miss uncle. then out of nowhere my mother replies, saying: he's not dead. he's alive!

i didn't comprehend her. @_@

then she says: what! why do you miss him?! he's not dead, you know. i saw him this morning. and you saw him on sunday. he's not dead. he's alive. he's living. you're only supposed to miss dead people. -_- yes mother.

wow. never thought i'd be talking to chrisl. i remember back then when he first came, he was kind of scary because he always wore this shirt with a big basketball hoop in the back or this blue shirt. and he looked menacing so i thought it best not to talk to him. but he didn't even knoe that i existed--i was in fifth grade.

afterwards, he was steph's best buddy. then after a while, after me and christina started going to youth group, he was also christina's confidant and they would always talk about their "problems" and every time i would go near them, they'd give me a look so i guess i was unwanted when they were talking. there was this one time chrisl said that because i "stole" everyone else away, christina had no friends. but that wasn't even true. then they would both make it seem like i caused all their problems. and i felt sad. i wanted to be their friends too.

it was always so hard to talk to chrisl. i remember making big efforts to talk to him. because i wanted to be his friend too. and there was a time when he kept getting exasperated by me so many times he would get angry with me. i felt uncomfortable around him. then steph told him that i would laugh with her about who i exasperated for the day..so he stopped being exasperated with me since he didn't want to be on the list of the people who i exasperated for the day...and i guess he didn't want to be laughed at.

then after a while, we were finally friends.

but he started mocking me after that, and his attitude was of derision and scorn. and some things he said just got to me. and it slowly filled up until one day i broke down.

then i forgot what happened. i think he became a good boy.

it's funny, because i actually talk to him now. it's not scary to talk to him and he's not some mean bully boy. it used to be very hard to talk to him because i had nothing to say to him and he was always everyone else's friend. but now he's my friend too. i think. but at least he's nice to me now. and helped me plan christina's birthday thing even though he didn't want to. yes. i think he became a nice boy. hah! we shall call him doofus head from now on.

he called me up todae at lunchtime because he said he was angry. he couldn't buy an angels ticket to go watch the world series so he told me to go look for one. he told me to look in the dirt too.

i asked a lot of people if they had an angels ticket i could have but they laughed at me. -_- i just wanted to get a ticket for chrisl.

i looked at the dirt to see if there was an angels ticket trashed there. but there were only patches of dead grass and ripped up pieces of paper.

so i went home and opened the cabinent.

and LO, and BEHOLD, evangeline found an angels ticket!

:) i shall bring it on sunday to give to chrisl. he's going to be one happy boy.

if you don't want to hug a tree, go sit on a rock.

-_- ergh. i actually did hug a tree todae. not on purpose, but not on accident. i almost almost couldn't breathe after i finished my race so i collasped on the grassy ground. but they made me get up because it's harder to breathe if you just stay on the ground. so they ended up making me hug a tree so that i wouldn't give way to the ground. ._. i feel stupid. i hugged a tree. evangeline hugged a tree. -_- but i couldn't help it. they made me.

oh well. that was the past. what's done was done. must not dwell on the past. -_- people say that i dwell too much on the past. but after today, you will see me dwell on nothing! ahahah.

during the race when i was running up the "godzilla" hill, my coach told me to focus.
but i couldn't. i tried though. my mind felt like scrambled eggs. actually, i think my mind felt like scrambled eggs that was thrown on the ceiling.

._. i was so close in beating this one girl from los altos but then a pang shot through my side so she beat me by a second. *grouse*

but then God was helping me the whole time during my race. :) *beam*

according to my mother, my father has seventy-two ties--she counted all of them in the closet because she said she "just got bored."

yay. me and jordan are reconciled. :)
according to him, he said that there is a time and a place to exapsperate me [him]. wow. a place that's designated to exasperate him too? :D ehehe.

he also mentioned: maybe God is using u to better me as a person so when i become a daddy ill have alot of patience for my annoying kids

THANKS jordan. -_- i'm thrilled to be your "practice" as an annoying kid.

excerpt from his email:
i feel in a way special that u consider me such a godo friend that i can affect u in this manner.......and u should feel special too cuz u can affect me too, i dont usually get mad at everyone like that , SO YOU SHOULD FEEL SPECIAL =) .........thanx evange ,.... im going to shoot myself for saying this...but i love you like a sister .....we;re liek brother and sister we fight alot , im ur brother that u never had that caused alot of problems and ur the sister i never had who is going to make me have a nervous break down ...............

your new and hopefully improved best friend
jordan

i'm touched. -_-

haha just kidding. i am..he said he expected me to cry after i read his email. so here's my tears: