smile for me. (:

happy birthday chrism! :)

you're an old man now. -_- twenty years old. if you plan to live to a hundred years old, you have four sets of twenty years to live. :) my my my. i must say that you've GROWN! *sob* little boy chrism is a non-teenager now. twenTY. -_- he's in his "ties" now. but don't worry chrism. just because you get old doesn't mean you can't come to our house anymore. :) the food misses you!

p.s. i hope you liked the card and your sweater. me and steph wrapped it. :) you're a bee on the card because you knoe, you're a BUSY bee! haha get it? because you're always busy.

ergh. i feel torn. wilbur, joe and jordan all told me to grow up and change because i act so "immature." -_-

except jordan. he became one of the good guys and understood that it's just a part of me. :)

every sunday the ushers pass out bulletins and a prayer card comes with it.

so joe fills out the prayer card: prayer requests: evangeline will grow up and become more mature.

and different remarks made by joe and wilbur were scribbled around the paper.
wilbur: "GROW UP" NOW
joe: i don't think you would know how to grow up.
wilbur: why do you want to live in the past?
joe: k..if you won't know how to grow up then forget it just don't bother.
joe: I'll talk to you about it one day.

-_- VERY encouraging words.

am i really "immature?" ergh. oh well. -_-

would it be better if i was DISmature?

i just don't want to grow up. i really don't. ._.

because if i have to grow up, i'll have to change. -_-

excerpt from jordan's email:
and i know i said i hate ur childish personality and im sorry that i told u to change cuz thats what makes you , you .....and thats why ur such a unique persoN ( i cant believe i am saying this -_- hahha) .........and who am i to tell u how to act, i do appreciate ur childish behavior cuz its fun, but u can go overboard sometimes .........but liek i said maybe God is using u to better me as a person so when i become a daddy ill have alot of patience for my annoying kids =] ........right? ....so Yup !

and here's uncle's [dennis].
Thanks for being who you are...Don't change anything about yourself...Keep being who you are..

and my mother told me that she was disappointed in the way i was acting. -_- she said she doesn't want me to act different. and to stay away from the "world." and some other matters.

but it was as if she slapped me. that's one of the most worsest things she could've said to me. that she was disappointed in me. -_- i was about to cry. @_@

so don't ever say you're disappointed in me. i think if seven people were to say that to me i would get a nervous breakdown. -_-

but my mother said she loves me. and sometimes people say hurtful things they don't mean..i hope. just yesterdae she said she was proud of me. and just five minutes ago she told me she loved me and bid me good night. :)

i hope it'll stay like this forever. that my parents will always say good night to me and give me a hug and a kiss..EVERY night. and when i get married, i hope they drive to my house and say good night to me. -_- but i don't think they will. maybe i should drive to their house, probably this house, and get a good night kiss from them.

one time my father somehow didn't say good night to me..probably because he forgot but i don't knoe. i was so sad i started crying because i felt like he didn't love me. -_- he got mad when i told him because he said that it was stupid to feel that way. he said he'll always love me. *beam*

i got a new cell phone. it's just like steph's. ehehe. now we could be like twins!

._. but..no more pucca case. everyone's STEALING pucca away from me! they have pucca keychains, lunch boxes, pencil cases, pencils and pucca everything! whackalaka. -_- pucca is MINE.

so anyhow, i got a new cell phone, thus my number has changed. :) it starts and ends with a seven. guess what it is!

seven used to be my favorite number because steph said that it's one of the "good" numbers.

and when i was in fourth grade, she told me, christina, angela, and abraham that the number to call heaven is 777) 777-7777. -_- and we believed her too. i remember one time i tried calling heaven. but it would never ring..so i thought maybe God was too busy to pick up the phone because there's so much going on with everyone else.

then three years later i go to a conference and a speaker talks about how we could talk to God whenever we want. He's never too busy for us..He'll be there when we're happy, He'll be there when we're sad, angry, anything. He's always there to listen when we talk to Him. we don't have to email or CALL to reach Him..we could just talk to Him. so don't try calling heaven. you'll just make your phone bill go up higher. if you want to talk to God, just talk.

sometimes when i'm talking to myself, i end up talking to God. on "accident." or in other words "unconsciously."

i don't like the word unconsciously because it's kind of hard to pronounce. something about the "s" sound. like ancient. that's one of the hardest words for me to enunciate. i like to be articulate in my words because it's fun moving your mouth. but my teachers always tell me that i mumble. and people do too. chrisl used to call me "mumbly" because he says that he can't understand a word i say. -_-
he's given me so many nicknames i don't remember them all. for now, he's supposed to call me "doofus" but HAH! i think he forgot. :) i don't want him to call me doofus because it sounds like a name for stupid people if they are any. and doofus sounds like a walrus with two long front teeth sticking out. -_- i hope my teeth don't look like they stick out. the dentist didn't say that i had to get braces. instead, i got an A+. :) i've been getting A pluses for five years now. :)

but two years ago abraham hit my front teeth with his helmet really hard because he was just "swinging it around." i wasn't too happy. so i was about to grab his helmet and hit HIS front teeth. but i didn't because it's not nice. -_- his front teeth were loose anyway.

i should have stole them after they fell out so he wouldn't get any money from the tooth fairy. >_< but i didn't think of it back then.

me and jerry and luke were stuck at church during epic on saturday so we all went to uncle and jonathan's office and talked...while i attempted to do homework.

and jerry called me gay. (note: for some reason, he told me to put that in my blog)

and only two people have called me gay in my whole life. -_-

he called me gay because i write notes to myself on a piece of paper to remind myself what to put in my blog.

i can't help it. i think i have insufficient memory--at least lately. -_- that's a sign of getting old. i would try to save trees (so i could hug them :) just kidding.) by not using paper and write everything on my hand but it rubs off. and i got in trouble for writing on my hand. -_-

if jerry calls me and everyone weird, doesn't that make HIM the weird one and me the normal one because he's the only "normal" one and i'm weird like everyone else?

jerry doesn't understand my point. -_-

but i must say, he IS a very funny boy.

"a box of Godiva chocolates really brightens my day." --uncle

haha..my mother doesn't knoe how to write turtle in chinese. but i don't either. so i can't do my chinese homework. e_e

H i rYu X 10 27: u fag
yvonne! he called me one too. -_- let's go beat him up! and give him a jackie chan butt kick and punch his nose. -_-

then three minutes later..
H i rYu X 10 27: haha
H i rYu X 10 27: put htat in journla
H i rYu X 10 27: i called u fag
H i rYu X 10 27: cuz i wnat to be mentioned in ur journal
SAtoHsHiMei: lol. i'm updating..and i DID put that without you asking
H i rYu X 10 27: haha
H i rYu X 10 27: YAY!
H i rYu X 10 27: u HOMO!
H i rYu X 10 27: ur pathetic u homofag
SAtoHsHiMei: i'm not putting you in -_-
H i rYu X 10 27: :-(
H i rYu X 10 27: sorrie
H i rYu X 10 27: best firend

-_- so much for being a best friend.

i saw sunny on saturday at the wedding and steven. :) back to the old days.. she's coming back to our church yes! eeeeee! and steven's grown up. -_-

this year is kind of like eighth grade all over again..very strange. @_@ it's been THREE years since i've been in eighth grade. ._. my, i think i might be getting old now. but i won't.

steph bought angela and marianna some spongebob hair clips. i took the spongebob one. :) so the squirrel--i think her name is sandy and gary is taken by marianna. and i think angela took patrick. but nobody wants squidward. poor squidward. marianna said that she doesn't like him because he's mean to spongebob. i just think he looks scary. @_@ if i were to wake up one day and see squidward hanging right in front of my face..who knows..i might die of a heart attack.

is squidward spelled squidwad or squidward? steph keeps insisting that it's spelled squidwad because his head is a wad. -_-

almost all the girls i knoe think spongebob is so cute. in school, all these girls have spongebob stickers, keychains, slippers, backpacks, and so on.

haha. well.....spongebob can be cute..

but wouldn't it be scary if spongebob just barged into your house one day and talks to you? or if you wake up to hear spongebob laughing at you? *shudder* that would be so scary. i think i would become dumbstruck. -_-

steph got christina a spongebob backpack for her birthday. and angela and marianna got spongebob clips. and steph has her own spongebob backpack. and marianna made a spongebob. and at school, all these girls have spongebob things. and at church, jessicawa has her spongebob backpack and some other people have some spongebob things too. @_@ i'm surrounded by spongebobs! i think i'm scared of spongebob now. he looks scary. -_- ever since the first time i saw him last year--sophomore year i thought it was some scary cartoon like beetle juice or something. but spongebob is good and nice. and he can be cute sometimes. but i just knoe i'm kind of scared of spongebob. >_<

i like darin and all. but when steph talks to him at the phone...i kind of get JEALOUS. and i look like the green monster. @_@ just kidding. if i turned into a monster i would be so afraid of myself. maybe i'd try to color myself yellow because yellow monsters look more friendlier than green ones. i would probably live like the beast in "beauty and the beast" and be locked up in this humongo castle..staying all by myself. *shudder* that would be even more scarier. -_- i don't think i'll like the idea of scaring myself... actually, i'll just not be a monster.

anyhow, i DO like darin but he's taking steph away from all of us. and what if she loves him more than us? more than me? -_- and when she talks on the phone with him here, it makes me feel asijdsd. HE's the one who gets to see her in san diego, and he also gets to see her at home while WE only get to see her at home. STOP TAKING STEPH AWAY. -_- just kidding. darin's a nice boy. very nice. and he takes care of us sometimes. he's like our big brother kinda. and he helped me with my physics homework. :) he invited us to eat at his house before too. his mother is really kind to us too. and his sisters, helen and emily were nice to us. but i think they like marianna the best. because she's the smallest and i guess you could say the cutest.

and his favorite cartoon is spongebob and i heard that he likes to sing disney songs. he has a "darin" kind of voice that goes down up down up down. just listen to him talk and you'll understand. it's like the ocean. he's good at math and physics because his head is full of numbers. sometimes he just doesn't communicate well because numbers are just in the way.

oh well. i think steph still loves us better.