smile for me. (:

i got my first hug from alice todae :)

my mother wouldn't let me go to e-zone to study with jams [james] and tai and some other physics people. she said we might end up playing games. -_- but i don't even knoe how to play computer games.

seong doesn't like his name so he tells everyone to call him sean. but seong sounds pretty so call him seong from now on.

i'm so embarrassed. i'm cried AGAIN today...

but the thing is that..that's not the real me. i usually don't cry. i don't like crying. it's too "girly-girl." it's like a "sin" to me. i shouldn't be crying. crying makes me feel weak...it makes me feel like a failure..it makes me feel stupid..it makes me feel like i need to cry more and more.. it makes me realize how hurt or how sad i feel.. it makes me feel guilty..it makes me feel like i'm not loved.. it makes my eyes hurt.. it makes everyone come and say "are you okae evangeline?..what happened?" and make me cry more.. it makes me feel the pain..makes me think about everything that's happened..it just makes me feel so sorrowful..makes me feel bad because i'm supposed to be happy..because i should be.. so other people would be..because i hate hate hate seeing other people feeling sad and depressed..it makes me feel like i have to do something about it..it just totally brings down my day. ._.

today during ministry time at church, i started crying..and my good 'ol bestest buddie wilbur brings me a stack of tissues.. -_- i think he thought that i was going to cry for an hour like last time.. but i didn't. i ended up using two of them but ruined the rest.

he kept saying all this random stuff to me to cheer me up.. like: hey! let's talk in chinese! nee hao! and he starts rambling on in chinese.

he told me not to cry because i look ugly when i cry. -_- great. so be prepared to see the ugly face of evangeline when she cries.

joe just took my koolio blue skater backpack, named albert, and danced around with it.

did you knoe that webb and vivian webb are married? :) schools get married too.

mike got exasperated yesterdae because he was trying to explain that webb and vivian webb are two different schools but the same school. asidj. i don't knoe. -_- it would make sense if webb was for the guys, and vivian for the girls..but webb is co-ed and vivian is not. but they're the "same" school. ._. oh well. i'll try not to think about it.

but i knoe i will...at night.. before i go to sleep. i'll be thinking and thinking and wondering about it.. about some stupid school named webb. @_@

i hate how my brain stores up useless information easily..and when it's information that i really need to remember, it somehow just forgets. -_- that is why i need to write on my hand all the time..i'm pretty sure it's the same for the rest of the kwans.

sorrie..it's all my fault. i don't think i should go.

drew's password for his AIM sn is one of hiroshima [sherman]'s nicknames...i found that very strange.

did you knoe that there's a different between "are you my friend" and "am i your friend"? i just found that out. :)

jerry pierced his ears. he looks very beautiful...but he said that they hurt. poor jerry. they're not worth the pain.

steph took me and christina and angela and marianna to get boba and treated us out to lunch. :) abraham didn't go because he wanted to play with his friends. -_- oh well. he missed out. because it was fun. we had sweet and sour soup too ^_^ ..which reminds me that i still need to make some for chrisl..because i promised him that i would make it for his birthday. *_*

my physics teacher told us that before his kid was born, he wanted to paste physics formulas all around the room so that his kid would never have any trouble with physics.

that's hip. when i grow up, i'm going to do that to my kid's room too...except i'll put up math and chem formulas too.. and quotes..punctuation and Bible verses. hah! then my kid would be the envy of every mother.

hey meet me in the men's bathroom stall --text message from reuben to seong. o_o