smile for me. (:

i don't know what to type. this is so new!

i can't believe i'm starting a blog :)

i distinctly remember everyone starting a livejournal/blog last year. people told me to start one but...i didn't...
because for some reason i dislike journals or diaries. people would know your inner thoughts and everything. i dont knoe--i'm not a person to express my thoughts.

i remember a long time ago christina and stephanie used to have diaries :) they had "hello kitty" ones or ones with decorations. they thought they were so cool >_<

haha i hope they dont get mad. but i used to read their diaries. i just wanted to knoe their thoughts so i would knoe how they felt about things. okae that was a LONG time ago. i dont do that anymore..so dont get mad at me steph :)

well they actually talk to me now..so i don't have to worry about reading their journals anymore.

i feel so tired. everyday it's like this. my mommy says that it's natural for teenagers to feel tired all the time. i don't like being called a teenager because that makes me feel so old. i knoe i've said this so many times but I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP! ._.

once my daddy got mad at me for saying that. he said to appreciate that at least i could grow up. some kids out there can't grow up.

[sigh] i guess i should be happy that i'm growing up. but i'm not. -_-

school was fun todae :) i'm taking beginning photography because i need UC credit for fine arts. also because i like taking pictures. of people. not me. >_< i dont like the camera.

jerry says that i don't like taking pictures because i'm self-conscious. i don't knoe about that. ._.

i'm kinda sad because tomorroe is the last day of school. no more daily routine of going into the darkroom and the thrill of developing pictures. maybe i'll take advanced photo during school year. my teacher said he'll be glad if i take advanced photo with him. :) i feel loved.

todae was a hectic day. everyone was cramming into the darkroom to get a station because we were all supposed to finish our projects todae. i was one of the first people to get into the darkroom. i put my negative in the enlarger and i made a test strip. everything was perfect. except that when i went back in the darkroom to print the picture paul shin took out my negative and messed up the focus because he needed to do his stuff too. -_- but it's okae. i felt bad because it took him a minute to find another enlarger that someone didn't use. besides, he said sorrie to me. i don't like it when someone says sorrie to me. it makes me feel guilty -_- i dont knoe why.

i was so exasperated. there was a picture of marianna covering her face and i had to develop it for one of my projects. it took four prints to make it perfect. her left arm kept coming out darker than the right arm. it made it look like someone stuck a black girl's arm on one side and a american girl's arm on the other side. i had to dodge and burn. i don't like doing that. -_- i wasted so much paper.

but jessica jachin had to print her picture ten times. that made me feel better. :)

there's a cantonese boy in my class :) his name is michael tu. he's a really nice and considerate boy. he likes to joke around a lot.
there's not that much cantonese people out of all the chinese people in my school. most of them are mandarin. so that made us happy. cantonese pride ^_^

i need to go practice piano--i have piano lessons at 4:45.

besides, steph wants me off the computer. she says that i take too long writing in my blog.

not too bad for my first "entry" eh? :)